December 2009
The Fall : the last post
I was falling. I can’t see. I feel such pain. I kept looking deep inside my memory. Where? When? Why? Why am i hurt?
The pain woke me up. I looked down to see my body’s condition. My right hand is bleeding. But there are no marks of any sharp object that punctured me. How? I look further down. My left foot was giving me excruciating pain. Oh my I can’t stand up. What has...
ANNOUNCEMENT:
hey im back awee!
fireworks all over the place 1 hour before everything changes.
im not used to this. not sending my friends a message like this
” hey happy new year thank you for being there for me sorry for what ive done i know i have been a bad girl. haha. i love you. thanks god bless”
but hey. i think they know what i would say anyway so whats the point? :))
i have an...
happy new year!
im in a rush i have to clean but i am really tired of reading other post.
@ jem's house
still in je’s house.
nakakaloka. nabaawasan din homework ko YEY!
i enjoyed it.
pero i think when i get LOL
i should get home now. or my dad will kill me.
“it must be fun being you”
– yay.
i was addicted to this for a while :))
2.45
emong: magandang umaga.
papang: matulog ka na. wag ka nang mambulili ng tao.
emong: puyat sa pagpepesbook? :P
------ di alam ni emong di pala si epang kausuap niya si papa!
“we’ll crawl till we can walk again then we’ll run until we’re...”
– chris breezy, crawl
my 2 to 4 am appointment
funny. i was up until 5 am and i still woke up as early as 8:30. WAHAHA. i felt like there was no way i could sleep. i felt a different kind of adrenaline inside me. waah. it was weird good thing i knew some people were still up.
that’s all i dont have long stories right now. cause i haven’t done anything exciting. :P
realization part 3?
yes i guess this is part three.
okay okay. here it goes. recently i cried. after a conversation with a friend. we had a little fight so on bla bla bla. but that is not the reason i cried it was about the topic. now that is something private. later on, actually just now i realized why i cried. its because i can’t fill that gap. i can’t fix this and i knew that. if i wanted the past 2...
“so tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you”
– alicia keys, try sleeping with a broken heart
expectations
it hurts me a lot to expect. that is way as much as i can i stop expecting. that is why i love words. because it helps, if you say it. i don’t have to expect, i would just know.
tomorrow i have a new mission. promise ko to. AJA.
clueless
you always want to make me sleep clueless
of what really happens inside
what stirs in you
stop please
cause if i cant take this
i wouldn’t like what i would do.
“one more and your out.”
– CHOSI
i forgot >:D
what a big excuse not to greet me :)) thanks to you my birthday was worth realizing something new.
anyway my day started crazy. i was day dreaming :)) hahah. kyul. and then sleeping then thinking and then trying and then watching. all day i responded thank you to the people who greeted me via text and ym and FB.
but one thing i hated the most sa mismong bday ko. is. WAAH. nevermind! i hate...
all i wanted was you.
epang: all i wanted was you!
ebang: all i wanted was you!
epang: all i wanted was you!
ebang: all i wanted was you!
manong eming: ang ingay niyo! pag tayo nabangga!
“i will miss you :)”
– i speak for myself
tumblarity down :(
from 15 to 12
from 112 to 118 damn :((
it gave me strength
my christmas eve.
went to makati. wasn’t in the best mood that day. but when i got there, my mind relaxed. actually sa car pa lang everything was changing already.
I’m lucky i saw him. it made me a little happy.
after a while we went to Rockwell to hear mass. and BOOM
fireworks again! weew. i love their fireworks display especially the finale because particles of the fireworks really come down...
“a best friend is a sister/brother that destiny forgot to give us :)) so why fall...”
– edited version really from gail
realization part 2
my head has been spinning. i have been thinking. i’m scared right now to believe what my mind tells me. i dont want to believe it.
you see, i trust you more than my head. i think of it and my head says yes. but there are other possibilities like maybe i just didnt know or maybe he/she just forget to tell me but maybe my head was right.
please tell me my head is not right. please?
remembered #1
when my cousin was applying wax in his hair and doing the same thing to my cousin. i remembered my first crush :)) i remember we were in the CR actually not in but just a little bit
( i was the intruder. it was the boys bathroom. was just there for the mirror and doors were not closed actually there was no door at all) i was first. i was fixing my hair i guess. waw. fixing my hair :)) yeah and...
hmmm.
you really make me doubt you more and more.
haha. 116? i like it! →
when i am mad :)) →
contact lens :))
choknat: magkano ba magpacontact lens?
coconut: hahah. ano yon kinakabit? ang alam ko natatangal yon eh.
poknat: hahahah. pero di nga magkano contact lens?
coconut: ewan ko. bigay lang sa akin to eh
choknat: bigay? ano yan second hand?
poknat: hahaha. paano yan nagkasya sa iyo? anong size ba niyan?
choknat: hahaha. di tshirt yan! haha
coconut: hahahah.
poknat: bakit? wala ba?
choknat: isa lang size non!
coconut: siguro sa laki ng mata mo dapat large sa akin small lang!
choknat and coconut: HAHAHAH
poknat: ang sama niyo sa akin :((
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realization
i realized that there are other people out there ready to help me. that yes, my barkada was my priority but there were others.
in that dream, he actually them sat beside me and stayed even though there were other people that needed them they stayed.
and i knew what message this dream was sending to me. it says that i should be thankful for them, because when i needed help and the barkada...
>:D
KANTO BURY!!
emong: ikaw yun. para sa akin di ka walang kwenta. ok?
epang: ndi ok! agree with me!
emong: basta PARA SA AKIN WALA KANG KWENTA
epang: yun!
emong: ay\
mali
DI KA WALANG KWENTA\
tae
maliiii
BASTA YAN PARA SA AKIN DI KA WALANG KWENTA
epang: haha. ndi un na un eh.
emong: AYIJI
AYOKO
“you never show up anyway”
– i speak for myself
there is nothing we can do.
did you know that things that hurt us the most are also because of what we do. for me its like that.
it was always my fault that some things result to this and that. i think it does not just apply to me but to other people as well. its just that i unfortunately always discover that it was my fault :)
i wish that i could turn back time or rather prevent this things to happen again in the...
trauma.
just got a prank call from someone.
trauma ang pangit niya! haha as if i saw him/her.
asa pa kasi akong may ttawag sa akin :P
happy birthday LOLA!
my Lola’s birthday was the same day as Nathalie’s birthday. So we had to go to Makati and i did not attend Nathalie’s party. When we got there i was still tipsy, rather i was sleepy because remember we got home bout 2 or 3, and then we had to practice this dance that we would perform for our lola. we danced drop it low i guess :)) I’m not sure of the title. So there before...
sunday day
Sunday morning. went to church then witnessed the baptismal.
Sunday afternoon. went to meralco bla bla. ate food lots of food and then went to the aviary where its full of birds. of course aviary nga eh. we even carried different types of parrots actually them. i was not scared i just didn’t want to have scars in my arms. after that we went to the sarmiento’s and ate dessert.
...
“THIS IS THE LAST STRAW. DON’T WANT TO HURT ANYMORE.”
– taylor swift; you’re not sorry
title: misguided ghost
artist: paramore
its ok.
you are not the problem. she is. i just don’t feel o so comfortable when she is around. i hope you understand
“and now I’m pissed”